These last few weeks have truly been a test. So much change, so quickly, so grateful; I swear getting sober has me feeling like a teen in the maturation process. I’m literally right back where I was as a teen, only this time I have the tools and support to do whats best in any given situation.
I’m getting my own apartment the first time in my life. I’ve lived with roommates and girlfriends in the past, however, it was always about the party though. My current state of happiness is no longer contingent on my expectations of others. The peaks and valleys have evened out. It still takes some getting used to. This whole conscious thing is one the better gifts I’ve received from recovery. It makes it easy to stand up for the things i believe in.
I’m grateful for the steps without them I wouldn’t be capable of doing the best I can. I’m grateful to turn my will over every morning, Especially on the days I think i know everything. I just would of never had thought that simply by quitting drinking and drugs at how far I would get in a year and half. I even get the opportunity to serve as chairman on a panel celebrating recovery for the inter county conference for the fellowship I belong to. I can’t wait to hear and learn from so many. Its truly an honor that has me pinching myself.
My favorite recovery cliche is that “It keeps getting better.” Its so true and keeps me going one day at time with a smile.
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